Well today wasn’t as great as I’d imagined it to be, considering it is my 11 month anniversary meaning 1 more month till a year. I mean great! This is pretty long for someone’s first relationship but I did expect something more than 3 fights and an old man constantly criticizing me/on my back.
As a grandfather, you’re entitled to be respected. As a grandfather, the grandkids are entitled to be respected. As a grandfather, you (a) have pretty much lost most of the respect you’re entitled to have by 1 or more of the family and (b) you fail at b. When you ask someone to do something, please, do not immediately tell them to do something else and keep pushing your goddamn luck. When someone is eating, please do not say that I did not have the heart to warm up your fucking soup. I had a giant bowl of hot curry on my lap. How could I possibly turn off the fucking fire when I was sitting down with a giant bowl on my lap. You can reach the dial from your wheelchair yet you decide, “oh since a Quan is heating the soup up she might as well turn it off even if she is eating”. Then you proceed to tell me off. Great way to keep your respect. As a chinese girl, I learn that you respect your elders but fuck! You keep pushing your luck, pushing my buttons. I am not your slave, I am your granddaughter. You are not the emperor. You are a resident in this house that you do not own nor do you pay for. It is currently winter. In winter you don’t leave the air con on and wrap yourself in a jillion blankets. You turn off the air con and wrap yourself in less than a jillion blankets. Also, when you ask someone to give up an important day so that they can accompany you to the hospital, please, for the love of God, do not just decided, “Oh, San will take me. I don’t need a Quan, I won’t tell her.” and just leave. Thanks, YeYe, for wasting half my day.
I’m not stupid. You know I understand vietnamese. Please do not treat me as if I don’t. Please, for fucks sake, stop LYING to me. I’m so fed up with you lying and you know how I feel about you riding/walking home at night. AT NIGHT. I don’t care that there are plenty of people around, do yo uthink they will help you? Are you willing to risk your life on people who will help you? Have you ever thought about how guilty I’d feel if you were hurt? You were coming from MY house. I’M responsible. And the fact that you wouldn’t listen to me, even if its for your own good, didn’t help when grandpa decided to butt in and get on my back…again.
When I was her age (and older) I was never allowed to sleep over. Sareena is her friend, regardless of the fact that she is my boyfriend’s sister. I had plenty of people who slept over but why was I never allowed over? HOW COME? Theres no difference between me and her. This is not fair, nothing is ever fair. You always believe her over me. Thanks, mother. You show brilliant equal love between your two daughters.
When I thought holidays were coming, I was excited. I mean getting away from all the morons at school! But I never thought that 3 days into holidays would turn out so shit. I do not look forward to school, but I do not look forward to being at home.
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